“People are just as wonderful as sunsets if you let them be. When I look at a sunset, I don't find myself saying, "Soften the orange a bit on the right hand corner." I don't try to control a sunset. I watch with awe as it unfolds.” (Carl Rogers)

Sunday, 15 February 2015

Reasons to be Cheerful (Part Four)

I could be a Lilly Billy, vulnerable and open and trusting, and I would like to be, but I think perhaps the world is not made that way and my thorns and horns did verily shew themselves in a work context and it makes me smile to think of it and how my dreadful junior school prepared me for small, silly battles with people who assume for themselves a vaporous 'authority': defiance and dumb insolence. Bridges burnt, leaving me free to negotiate in the difficult but rewarding peaks and troughs of doctoral writing. The time is indeed now!

And yet, my buds also opening, welcoming and receptive both. Meeting Kathleen, Joan and Ann at a mental health feedback event - just a treasure to listen to their stories. And spending the day easily with Lauren at Sheffield Green Party training was a joy.

And small interior adventures are treasures, too. I was walking out on one of my newly habitual audiobook/walks along cleethorpes beach, when CD2 of my Crime and Punishment was all of a sudden set in a twentieth century Irish pub with a trio of men fondly known as 'The Alcoholics'. Now, I'm not real familar with Dostoevsky, but I'm pretty sure that most of his plots took place in Mother Russia and time travel didn't play much of a part. Beam me up, Raskolnikov! And so I just enjoyed the sounds of sunshiney cleethorpes.

And I did find a replacement (out there!) so am continuing on the journey into the dark heart of the book, which I came to via the great Howard Devoto who sang "I`d`ve been Raskolnikov/but Mother Nature ripped me off" - I've always been intrigued by that line. And I was shocked and sickened by the central act in the book, so maybe it's right to be nervous now...

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