“People are just as wonderful as sunsets if you let them be. When I look at a sunset, I don't find myself saying, "Soften the orange a bit on the right hand corner." I don't try to control a sunset. I watch with awe as it unfolds.” (Carl Rogers)

Saturday, 18 April 2015

Reasons to be Cheerful (Part Twelve)

Steinbeck's The Pearl - materialism and greed, evil and superstition. Actually, at points quite gripping, but overall fucking depressing! Do 'things' have inherent worth? It's our problem, isn't it - things are worth more than humans in our social construction. You're the kind of girl that fits in with my world, I'll give you anything, everything if you want things...

Making my own version of the investment graveyard song - fuck you and fuck your money... Destroying, mostly with an enjoyable bang smash bang smash hammer, a superfluous armchair that I couldn't otherwise find a home for - and in general decluttering and shedding skins all around. My back aches and my arm goes numb when I sleep - good reminder of mortality and best keep on getting things done while I am able! This, too, will pass :-)

The unexpected and quite intense feeling of joy from tending the garden every day - and seeing the first signs of rocket (eruca, of course) appearing after just one week - our planet is fucking amazing, really! 

Realising just how personally valuable it is to be summarising Freedom to Learn - it is quite an astonishing book. Additionally, I only now made sense of the three editions, which seem really quite different to each other, to the extent that I've also realised that I need to have all three editions in order to get a full sense of the development of person-centred education. The two I don't have are fucking expensive; however, they are cheaper in the US of A, even despite shipping costs, so I've ordered from there and they ought to come around my birthday so I will justify the expense in that way!

On a related note (isn't it all!) I have made significant writing progress this week, having populated and tidied up the most part of a chapter on the american educational context for freedom to learn, a chapter i didn't know i had to write until i realised i had to write it! I feel like I am finally establishing some real control over the direction of at least some of this big thesis, which keeps growing and shrinking before my eyes - it's quite an exciting adventure. I'm especially looking forward to grappling with Herr Heidegger, which I expect to trouble my ideas in more profound ways than I can envisage right now... and this writing progress all because of a decision I took just over a month ago, here expressed by Friedrich Nietzsche (in Nietzsche: Daybreak: Thoughts on the Prejudices of Morality): 
That is why I go into solitude so as not to drink out of everybody’s cistern. When I am among the many I live as the many do, and I do not think as I really think; after a time it always seems as though they want to banish me from myself and rob me of my soul and I grow angry with everybody and fear everybody.


  1. I am
    late in catching up.

    I feel as excited by the thought of you dwelling with-in 'Freedom to Learn ' as I felt by the thought of you dwelling with-in 'Walden.'

    I feel excited by your thesis as it grows and shrinks and takes shape as you sup from your own cistern :O)

    My guess is that you are not one among the many Billy.
    My guess is that you think as you REALLY think, feel as you REALLY feel and that NOBODY is going to banish you from yourself.

    Good to hear you garden is bringing joy.
    As you say "our planet is fucking amazing really"
    "Materialism and greed, evil and superstition" all but a part of a greater un-folding.
    In a way perhaps all part of our freedom to learn ...

  2. You are
    on time always

    Thanks Kat - I'm always encouraged by you x


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