“People are just as wonderful as sunsets if you let them be. When I look at a sunset, I don't find myself saying, "Soften the orange a bit on the right hand corner." I don't try to control a sunset. I watch with awe as it unfolds.” (Carl Rogers)

Sunday, 13 September 2015

Reasons to be Cheerful (Part Thirty Three)

The biggest news and reason to be cheerful is that this has been a very tough week, but tough in a worthwhile I will not cease from Mental Fight kind of way. Week Two - count 'em! - of no booze and I felt it. Piercing headaches, mood swings, depression, depersonalisation, vulnerability, nightmares, fatigue. Fucking hell, it's not as if I was a heavy drinker. Oh... Still, this has all been rather unexpected. Ironically, its been like having a hangover for a fortnight. One week to go till nirvana...

My main task this week has been just to read Heidegger and especially "The Question Concerning Technology". I have nothing to say about it here, because, I'm tired. Tired. This is the mood of my dasein. Billy Dasein's mood today is tiredness. I keep reading this shortish essay I read commentaries and summaries on this shortish essay. And I want to read this shortish essay again. And the summaries and the commentraries. Honestly, it's kind of impenetrable in its mysteriousness. Fuzzy. But, it's mysterious like existence and fuzzy like being. How the hell can we ever hope to capture the essence of these things using words? It's what Heidegger manages to do. And I'm captivated by his thinking. It transforms as thinking can transform being. I read on.

I took a trip to Huddersfield to experience PiPs - Philosophy in Pubs (Philosophy. In pubs.) namely THINK Huddersfield - it was a really nice experience despite having chosen not to drink when I'm going and spending time in pubs with good beer. The conversation was lively and challenging, the people welcoming and friendly. A wonderful model to emulate.

My favourite "The Plebs" cover
Being-with my friends from the Social Science Centre, one foot in the institution at London Metropolitan University's TUC Archive, and one foot defiantly out at MayDay Rooms - "MayDay Rooms is an active repository, resource and safe haven for social movements, experimental and marginal cultures and their histories., " - we spent a lovely free afternoon with Ian and Pauline shaped by love and challenge and generosity and food and sharing and a little madness and a lot of inspiration. I still haven't fully processed all of this yet, so MayDay rooms will return here at some point.

After that London, a return to Lincoln - infamous birthplace of the tank! and of Billy Dasein! - where it was me and Heidegger, in a hotel room, in our PJs - for a whole day! I wasn't as industrious as I usually am on my writing retreats, given the presence of headaches and fatigue (see above), but I was kind enough to myself to just take it easy and read what I could and not worry about it overmuch.

More reasons to be cheerful: Jeremy Corbyn! Being on call to Being! No hangovers (except for the one that lasted all week, ha!). Didn't realise at the time, because I've been feeling a little frazzled, but looking back, really quite a significant week in many ways. Cheerful Reasons. To Be.

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